Somebody take this black cloud away

If I don't get some relief from this misery of life, I think I'm going to loose my mind. I'm not going to do anything stupid yall but I just can't take anymore. I'm working on limited funds, big equipment loans are due and I need more work and for equipment to keep running.
I'm loosing all desire to even try to do anything, life sucks when your alone. I honestly can't take anymore, I'm at the end of my rope. I need a break, both from work and for work to be better.

I don't know the specifics, but you should get out and talk to others. You are not alone.

Gary, I know I have replied to you in the past, but you must get help, we've all had setbacks and problems. They must be dealt with. I lost a business because I had a wife that was a thief and liar. Took a long time to pay off that crap, but I did, and I got rid of her. Change your life, there are no other options.

Gary;

I too,have been thru rough times. Seems I had to fight everybody(family farm ) to get anywhere.Got that settled and then the weather turned against me. Too much rain. After that it was health and a couple of injury accidents. Wife stuk with me thru all this. We were on vacation one year and decided to retire,sell out and move south. Best thing I ever did. But I do miss the farm. And tinkering with the old tractors. Hope this helps some.

Be careful and take care of yourself

steveormary

Gary, I don't know if it will help but I would guess that more than 75% on this forum has seen hard times and I'm probably being conservative and I know for a fact that I've had my lights turned off and ignorred many threatening collector phone calls in my journey through life trying to raise a family and pay for a home also lost a business through an SBA loan. My reccomendation is do not I repeat do not file bankruptcy that seems to carry a stigma you cannot get out of regardless of the rules. My guess is you grew up in family that preached always pay your bills early or on time which I think breeds your depression my advice is get over it! You cannot imagine the big money people that either send the payment in on the date it's due or late due to a billing discrepency or whatever a 1% late charge is better than foeclosure plus most lending institutions aren't going to foreclose on 1% especially in these times. My e-mail is open feel free to talk about it.

CJ, the problem is that there is too much equipment down with repairs, basically a one man operation because to be honest right now I cannot afford much help and I really can't afford the repairs either. I just need a break, all the meds in the world are not going to make these things happen.
I know what your saying and I appreciate it as well as all other replies. What I do makes good money but I just need a break to get out of this funk.

I know the feeling . Been there and thought about ending it but some ONE came along and said stay around just to agervate them.

Gary

I sent you an email. Just want you to know that our church will be praying for you.

Gary

thanks man!

You need to talk to someone, a pastor, good friend, counselor, anyone to remind and assure you that you are NOT ALONE in your despair and worry and there are better days ahead. Maybe you need to make some changes or decisions to get through this and an outside prospective will help. I have been there several times through a suicidal wife ending with divorce, financial woes, being framed for a wrong that I didn't do, family illness, etc. A strong Christian faith is a big help for me.

Gary, I do not know the details of your business, but it sounds like it might be time to shut it down and try something else.

What we do for a living is simply a means to pay the bills with hopefully enough left over to have some fun with. If your business giving you at least the first outcome, shut it down and try something else. It will be hard, but a lot of folks have done that before and been better for it.

God bless you and guide you on the right path.

Paul

I can appreciate what you are going through. I had to sell down (land) to right my financial ship. Since some of it was land that had been in the family, it really hurt. However, it made more sense than letting things deteriorate to the point of possibly losing everything. What I did sell I did so to people that the possibility of re-acquiring within a few years would most likely happen. Had the lawyer handle the legal aspect of this. At least at this point what I have is not vulnerable to be taken.
I am thankful I have friends I can turn to as I do not think I could have bore this alone. I don't have the chest pains I used to have before. I still have to avoid thinking about the people that would love to buy me out for ten cents on the dollar, though.
I would agree with those that encourage some kind of religious faith as I find it comforting. I think most people experience serious setbacks in life. Some people are better at keeping secrets than others.
Making the change will eventually allow you to work toward something rewarding. Always keep reaching out to others for the support you need
Good luck!

A few years back had tractor rollover,spent time in hospital no insurance.Had loans to pay,put me behind everywhere.That same winter well pump took a dump,two days later milk cooler died.I made it.Rome takes time.Scott

In my business I deal dailey with people who feel all is lost. I want to tell you success is how you define it. My business has struggled to a degree. However many of my competitors are out of business. In this economy , if you are still standing , you're ahead of the pack. Time off will repay itself with renewed vigor. Take a Friday off and make a long weekend of it.Put aside your worries and enjoy yourself. Monday it will all look better and easier. This is not the time to make a bold career move. Employers are firing , not hiring. Hang in there and good luck.

Gary, Where in Texas? I go to the valley every winter (Jan/Mar) and I'd be willing to give you a few days/weeks, for just a place to plug in my 5th wheel. I'm a retired electrician so that makes me at least half mechanic. Skolzie

Gary, I have read your previous posts and it sounds to me like you're just a little overwelmed. I don't know what yo mean by being alone unless you're single and you don't want to be. I've lived alone for the last 25 years and I wouldn't have it any other way, but then again, I'm a good cook. I won't say I've been where you are cause I haven't but I'm going to make a suggestion. First, if you haven't already done so, get a good credit counselor. They may be able to contact your creditors and get your load lightened some. Next, make a list of all the things that need repaired. Then go through the list and number them in order of priority number one being the most urgent. Then concentrate on getting that one thing done When it's done move on to number two and so forth. I think you'll find that pretty soon you'll start feeling better about yourself. Most of all, don't give up. And you never know what's around the next corner. Life is a series of opportunities. When you start feeling better about yourself, other people will feel better about your too and who knows, maybe all of a sudden you're not alone anymore. Please give it a try. rw