It"s tough to watch them fade away. My Dad died 19 years ago at age 80. He and my Mom had lived in a paid-for condo for a number of years, and my oldest sister started helping Mom make decisions about her sizable wealth. Mom and my sister decided that the condo needed a new fancy kitchen and spent $20K making that happen. Unfortunately a couple of years later Mom decided she should move to a retirement apartment and sell the condo. We recouped about $5K of the money she spent remodeling the kitchen. The condos in that complex just do not sell for more than that.
In the retirement apartment Mom did OK for about 10 years. She drove until she had a fairly serious accident, which totaled her 40K mile car. Mom decided that she should quit driving, which was a relief to me--I didn"t want to take that away from her.
Unfortunately my sister got harder and harder to get along with. I don"t know if it was menopause related or she just went crazy. She was a teacher who ended up getting fired for yelling at students and being insubordinate to her bosses. She was also tough on Mom, and would get Mom all worked up all the time. My sister also decided that she should be paid for helping our Mom. We finally took Mom to the attorney, who agreed that my sister was impossible to deal with and got the paperwork changed so my older brother and I would have Mom"s power of attorney. My sister was mad and is still mad at us. I try to avoid contact with her.
I finally took over all of Mom"s business affairs, when she complained of getting so much mail all the time. I found that she would get a 4 or 5 inch stack of "gimme letters" every mail day from all sorts of organizations, real or maybe fake. I discovered that in the previous 3 months she had given away over $10k to various "causes", some of which opposed eachother. I had all Mom"s mail transferred to my address and spent over $100 of my own money sending letters to the many "charities" explaining that my Mom would never send them another cent, and to quit sending letters to her. Most eventually quit sending anything. More than 10 years later, the nnalert Party STILL is sending Mom bill-like requests for money. I am really disgusted with them.
Mom has become more and more affected by dementia. After about 10 years in her retirement apartment, she decided to move to the Assisted Living unit of the same complex. That worked OK for a year or so, but then Mom started walking away. Once she was found walking down the road more that 1/4 mile away from her unit. After about 3 or 4 times finding her outside and walking aimlessly we were told that she would have to move to a secured facility where she would not be able to roam. We ended up placing her in the dementia unit, but she didn"t really fit in well there either, since she was still able to talk and most of the patients there just sit in wheelchairs.
The dementia unit is expensive. The basic cost of her care is about $9500/month plus the costs of her medications, Depends and incidentals. My Mom has good income and years ago we invested in Long Term Care insurance. At the time, we thought that was the best way to go.
But since she has some money, my Mom"s care is private pay, rather than paid for my Medicaid. It galls me somewhat that the patients on Medicaid get EXACTLY the same care that my Mom does, with everything paid for. We pay more than $10K per month. My Mom does have a private room, but they have no way of keeping other patients out of there, and they wander in and out, sometimes even getting into Mom"s bed.
Mom is now 97 and can hardly walk. Sometimes she is better than others, but often she is not very conversational. I suspect that she is sometimes overmedicated, but if she is undermedicated, she has delusions and horrible nightmares. Mom would like to die, and I hope she gets her wish one of these days. It has been a rough few years.
I do enjoy spending time with my Mom, and have fun with her when she is conversational, although she really doesn"t have much memory at all any more. She usually knows who I am, although sometimes she has called my by her youngest brother"s name.
My sister continues to cause problems. The staff at the nursing home hate her, as she is always so cross and ornery. She files complaints about one thing or another although she has absolutely no authority. We have even thought about getting a restraining order to keep her away from Mom, who she constantly upsets.
Years ago, we thought about having Mom live with us, but I am glad we did not. She and my Wife have never got along very well, and I fear that having Mom live with us for any length of time might have cost me my marriage.
I have never taken or accepted a cent of my Mom"s money, although I certainly could have under the terms of her will paperwork. I just do not think taking money would be right. If there is any left when Mom dies, the money will be split equally 4 ways and distributed to me and my 3 surviving siblings.
I used to think that I wanted to live to be really old. But after taking care of my Mom all these years and watching the aging process happening to her and ALL of her contemporaries, I have decided that I do not WANT to live beyond the age of 90, and maybe not that old if my mental and/or physical abilities get bad. My Dad lived to be 80, and he was to my knowledge, the oldest male in his bloodline. He never spent even one night in a nursing home and never had the indignity of needing to wear adult diapers. He drove his new car the day before he died. To my way of thinking, my Dad got the dying part of his life"s story right. And to me, any time past 90 is probably going to be a fairly low quality time of one"s life, and it may be torture.
I guess I spouted off pretty long here...but watching my Mom go downhill has been rough. And a lot rougher than it should have been, thanks to my goofy sister.
There is a time to be born, and a time to die. You just hope the time between those two events is reasonably good.
Good luck to all who care for aging parents. You are not alone.