(quoted from post at 11:41:30 11/07/12) I know the feeling, tried and have been very close to obtain that off farm job related in my field, which was always lucrative, just not near home and close does not win the race.
The thing is, or with me, it seems you lose a sense of purpose, farming and dealing with crops and or livestock definitely has the ups and downs, besides all the work and hours that keep a person busy doing it, but that stability in something that you work at like an off farm job or venue that provides decently, when lost or can't be found really puts a damper on ones mindset, something I really hate, that and all the gray cloudy days, like Dave says, I agree on it, sunny days and making sure you eat right, does help immensely, having been quite sick recently and lost my appetite because of it, sure as heck does a number on your morale LOL!
I recently got the news, after I literally had to extract it, sorry we hired someone else, was a job I did before and worked there before, really wanted and needed this job, we did great things there too, never burned any bridges, figured I had it, and a welcome relief after 8 years or more of doing low pay physical labor since I initially left the business and working out of town. Saw the position advertised, had a reference letter from the same exact agency, + worked for them for 3 years, know the job well, nope could not sell it to them. Ok, but there's no other listings for awhile now, which leaves a person hanging in limbo, the body really hates the hard labor intense work, so now what... Low paying crap jobs that you did when young like many others did as well then moved on while pursuing education, career etc., does nothing nowadays, to pay bills, taxes, and just wears on a person mind at this age, but it makes you look good, you still get up and go to some job, but its one you hate and does not pay enough to do anything. It sure as heck has me in a rock and a hard place, even more comical when or even if you actually get a rejection letter and don't get a job, they do not even tell you why. And today they want perfection, employers market is right, pass a 5 panel drug test, we want your credit history, any criminal history, something to verify your behavioral history, and how many other similar things, one blip, likely you won't get it, then someone says "well you should have thought of that then" this does you no good, then there's age, they want a younger person so mid 40's-50 year old people have to deal with that too, when all said and done, its entirely possible to not be employed because they just will not hire you, then what, become a ward of the state, sell drugs LOL Really, its just comical, lot of good people with less than perfect backgrounds, was never an issue years ago.
So now you have to really think outside the box, never been a manic depressive, always keep a pretty upbeat demeanor, tomorrow is another day, but with land taxes always on the horizon and things being the way they are its a difficult task to stay above what worries you. I don't have any answers either except to keep plugging along, stay alert and focused on something productive, best to stay busy and not let ones mind get sour by this kind of adversity, wish like heck I could find a solution too, they never said, (whomever they is LOL) it would be easy, but I also never thought the door on every opportunity would get slammed shut either.
When I worked in NYC, I did some precast plank/masonry buildings, and the precast erector was a British guy, he always used to say, "Don't worry Bill, things always change" and looking back, he was usually right, even though it may not be on the horizon, too slow in happening, hard to argue with just the same. I do hope something will do just that soon for anyone in a situation similar, can't take away hope or well um not without a fight LOL !!!!